Misterzombie, 35

i am seeking a woman that is content with being in a relationship with a walking corpse. i mean this in a near literal sense. i need a woman that can be my friend at all times, be intimate with me when such is desired, will stand by my side through the good and bad times, is honest and open, is open-minded, caring and understanding, can maintain an intelligent conversation, and is willing to deal with me for rest of our lives together.
i can act childish at times and i regularly speak in a childish manner such as running off in a store and acting a fool (if you're easily embarrassed, i am not for you) and using words of my own creation such as "chickem" or "sausamage" or "peas" instead of please.
i am responsible and budget conscious but i don't care for earth monies or material possessions very much unless they add value to my life in the form of survival necessities and/or income producing (or potential) to acquire survival necessities. however, i am also impulsive and at times i can't stop it (this is rare).
in short, I do not care but i try to be responsible and self-disciplined. i don't understand emotion very well due to many factors and am completely honest regardless of your feelings. i am incapable of love as most understand it but when i truly love someone, it's similar to how a dog loves it's owner. i relate more to wolves than i do humans. i will not change for anyone except myself but i am always trying to improve myself by seeking the truths and knowledge of the universe and my inner being.
if you've made it this far, know that this description is barely the top of the needle on top of the iceberg. i am a difficult one to be with due to many factors but i'm also one of the most loyal, honest, and trustworthy people you'll ever know. to give a very vague and broad summary: i have grown so comfortable in the chaos and pain that is my life, that peace would be a nightmare and solitude is my sanctuary.